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Hah, read the last post and laugh.
I may be willing to accept another, again
Into my life,
But, who might be willing to share
Theirs with me? The field of possibilities
Is quite empty,
And unlikely to change. I am left realizing
I could, again, be content with my own company.
A wiser path.
This other stops for lunch before heading on.
I enjoy his company, if not quite the feelings
Rising in me.
The friend who left this morning led me
To believe he might be open to such.
He is not,
Made clear, not that way.
I am left realizing I could, again, be open to such,
Again, accept love,
Again, welcome sharing life with another.
Space in my heart for more, even while never
Not missing you.
After a wonderful month here, one friend
Prepares to leave, heading for new adventures
Of her own.
Another visits, a routine trip that coincides
with this goodbye. Together we all walk the shore
as the sun sets.
Hard rain, gray day, good wet paint sale.
We each sell a few paintings
And enjoy friends.
A week with an old friend and her poodle.
We paint again, together. How I have missed
This dear camaraderie.
Drive home, I am over used to long drives but
This one I am not looking for others to fill spaces.
I am looking
Only for my own space, for quiet and thoughts,
For music. Leaving this land in warming morning light
It looks sweet.
My niece and new nephew are splendid!
I can only wish to them the happiness we knew, but for
Many more years.
Left early to drive to Ithaca. New roads.
Coming in not impressed with the countryside
Glad to arrive
Dinner with family for this wedding. Enjoyed
Of course and of course see the huge differences
Choices give life.
I am glad to be here with my family, However
too short the time which underscores how
Alone I am.
The shop has slowed. Live and learn.
Part of the fracas was over rehanging.
Intentions were good
Expressed but not clearly. After ponies comes
Landscapes. A chance for the partner to shine
Maybe. Maybe not.
Next year do this change sooner. I see that
She felt pressured. Is it important to consider?
Yes and no.
In the larger scheme of life, no. In learning
the small particulars here, yes. My fault, naturally,
Not communicating that.
A friend staying with me modeled today
Here in my yard and was divine.
A joy to paint.
For the first time new painting friends came,
The painting intense, fun! The day was glorious,
The company splendid.
An amazing respite in what is otherwise
Not so easy a life to live. It's true, life's better
With good companions.
