2/26

A Saturday spent busy in side but for time

Taken to walk with friends, play with pets,

Dine with neighbors.

2/21

Talked with a friend, feeling as if the days currents had sent

Me into a shallow, to float softly swirling in warm waters

And her wisdom.

Felt I had been given a gift of hope, distant but visible,

That my choices these days to honor love by honoring life, are

A good ones.

2/18

Tears will come and my goldens bring to me their hairy comfort.

Reminding me how ephemeral life is after having been loved

By my dear.

Tears will come and my goldens will lena on me, making me

Smile at their silly antics, glad to share their company as

I go on.

2/14

Wake, yearning to lean into the warmth of you, perhaps

I do, even as my senses rise to the light of another day breaking,

With colors paler.

2/13

Valentine's Eve, spent in our friends' B & B, wondrous,

Not since Vienna, with you, have I had such an evening

Art and music.

2/11

This night I walked the cold late hours with our dogs

Under stars so beautiful, I called loudly to each I know,

And to you.

With all my breath I call your name loudly to hear it echo

Through the clear cold, to hear distant foxes bark reply under

An early moon.

This cold, this year is easier to bear but

I miss saying your name, your name, Jack. I

Mourn that, too.

2/10

Grief seeps inward now, no less there but solitary

Its circle swings in smaller arcs, settling

To encompass me.

I move softly through these changes, lifting mourning

To a place nestled by heart and soul: mine and a few others.

Enough to hold.

2/9

This night made dinner, alone, then watched,

Alone, a silly sweet sounding show we both liked.

Watched and cried.

2/8

A simple mid-week day as such we once treasured.

Together, sort of, doing each our own, joining to

Give thanks together.

2/7

This day brings soft, snow-less winter colors

And I walk the go-go's the mile to mail, watching

The hours pass.

How does one go on and why? Why bother, though?

The day is quiet, kind and easier - to drift along

holding words.

Where will I go, why might I stay? Have I

Courage enough to move valiantly, or hold until

The souls knows

2/6

Learning aloneness needs knowledge I've not known much.

Nicer to wish Faith success, in her company football betting.

good to watch.

2/5

Seeking a path steady enough to support, sustain,

Is not easy. Perhaps hardest is knowing now the deepest

Connection is gone.

2/4

Here is what I know: life starts well within my heart,

But others may not wish so to know and so, you are missed

Ever soul deep.

2/3

Finding a path through life is not an easy thing.

Not one well-lived, lost beyond soft, fine passages

That bring peace.

2/2

I do yet wake yearning to lean into the warmth of you.

My senses still rise only to the light of breaking day, even

As colors pale.

So though this season's cold pales compared to last year, it still bites

My bones, even with weaker teeth. Perhaps I have only grown more

Able to withstand.

2/1

There is a knack, a way of reaching out and I

never realized how simply good you were at

Keeping in touch.